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[ Alice has been trying to draw in her sketchpad for a while now and it's clear from how wrinkled the piece of paper is, that she's tried to draw on it to no avail. It's been erased numerous times. Right beside her are her imp and her rabbit, as always. She's been quiet at the villa, she's locked herself up acting stranger than before. ]

How funny it is when the mind brings so many images and memories that it cannot even transfer onto a sheet of paper. I know what I see, but it cannot go through my fingertips and onto my paper, unlike so many times before.

[ By the tone of her voice, she means more than that. Guarded as ever, Alice will not say what it is, other than she reluctantly places her pencil down on the paper. Art blocks are terrible, and they're more terrible than before. ]

I am sorry... for my absence. Please don't think of me as silly, but I lost a good companion of my mine. My mare. My horse. I took her in after my first battle, when her owner had fallen. I loved her dearly, she was my friend, too, as much as anyone else I know here.

[ Alice says this while trying not to cry. ]

I loathe to think of another animal as a replacement, but seeing as it is a necessity, I have no other choice. She had fallen in battle when I separated from the others.

[ When she went on her rampage after the Jabberwock, though she's not going to say that. Alice just rubs her rabbit's ears instead while looking at her blank paper. ]

I can try and buy one, if needed, if anyone wants to humor me. I know this is a silly request after everything that has happened -- selfish, even. I think it might be best if I left, for a small while, so I can clear my head and be useful again. No good comes of being a shut-in.

[ After all, ever since she came back, she's been acting stranger and much more distant than before. There is more here that she wants to say; she struggles with saying it. ]

I, well- never mind that. Please be well, all of you.

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Sounds like a blame game that only comes up when you've lost something. Don't see your loss as a reason to be angry with yourself. [He says it with a strange amount of clarity. But Jason has always been better at other people's pain and worries than his own. And he's largely removed from what she's feeling. While he's angry with the Seelie, he doesn't have much (or any) experience in losing a pet, or a horse, or anything similar. He's grounded in people, so to some degree, he isn't lost in that. He can offer some words of advice.]

As for talent, you're why I'm still kicking. I don't think we're really doing ranking right now. [He doesn't say "I'm grateful for that," but he is talking to her at all.]

[ Alice falls silent at that; it isn't the first time she's heard that. It sounds a lot like something the Caterpillar would say, too, arguably one of the more sound aspects of her personality and of Wonderland. Had it come from the queen or Cheshire Cat, it would have been harsher. She does blame herself when she loses things, but more important to her, the loss of an innocent life. She still hasn't forgiven herself for the children. So Alice looks away momentarily, choosing not to argue it. It's a silent confirmation.

When she scolded Lancelot those months ago, she told him the same thing, when he aided her in a battle just like this one. Alice can only scoff at herself. ] No, rank wouldn't have anything to do with it, you're right.

[ It's just too damn hard to think that anything she could do could have been right. ] Or the vorpal blade for that matter.

[ Alice manages a smile, at least. ] I'm glad, even if you're stranger and I would do it again. I am also glad that you didn't receive any other injuries -- you look healthy. I can allow myself to take some pride in that.

I feel great, actually.

[The words come easily after her silent confirmation. Jason won't needle her about it unless she seems like she's determined to wallow. He's had to slap some sense into Batman a few times. No one would ever believe it, he knows, but he's not against trying it here.

Only there would be less literal "slapping."]

But I'd probably be a nearly headless literary figure of your choice. The cautionary tale for everyone if I hadn't gotten back up when I did. [After all, he'd be both a literary figure and a rather pathetic one. He'll buy that.] And I look too good to lose my head. [He adds that with a huff of a laugh, making it clear that he's laughing at his own joke.]

All that aside, if you're going to take some time to pull yourself together, is it gonna be somewhere safe?

Really? I'm glad.

[ She feels a little self-conscious for repeating herself, but.

That does make her feel better -- he's a stranger, sure, but to hear that he feels great is enough to make her brighten. With so many terrible things, Alice will latch onto some good news. She manages a smile at that joke, as morbid as it is. ]

Perhaps, perhaps not. It's a little hard to see anyone fit that role outside of the Green Knight, you know. So please, yes, don't lose your head any time soon.

[ Alice isn't very good at joking and naturally being surrounded by knights and royalty, the Green Knight came to her mind. But she brightens even more, nodding- ]

I'm going to make it a point not to go alone, so yes, I'll be going to be somewhere safe.

That's all I needed to know. [Straight, to the point, and all about where she's going. Jason doesn't needs to remark upon being called the Green Knight or anything like that. He figures if he's going to die here, it'll be in some damn poetic way that parallels how he went before.

He'd rather that not happen.]

If you find yourself in trouble, drop me a line.

[ True to how she is, she's curious. Her shoulder seem to sag in some slight disappointment. ]

I'll be fine. But then what about you, sir?

I won't always come. [Jason shrugs.]

But it's an offer.

[ Alice's eyes narrow in her thoughts. People are strange here, she needs to remember this. ]

Normally I would be inclined to decline an offer, but- I'll remember it with you, Mr. Jason. So thank you.

[ He's an impressive fighter and if someone is able to fend for themselves, they're a little more trustworthy. ]

I'll count myself lucky, then.

[In terms of his offer being taken, at least. He considers adding something like "I'll make sure you don't have to save my ass next time," but he suspects that it's a given.]

Oh, no, please don't. It's not as if there are many who are fit for battle or for skirmishes!

[ That could have been followed with a flail. ]

I'm sure they will eventually. I'm just fortunate enough to keep running into those who are skilled fighters.

She says, while discounting her own skill. Why do you do that? Does it make you nervous?

[ That has her taken aback, that she falls into a silence. ]

Truthfully? Yes. In some ways.

[ Though, ultimately, Alice thinks she's unworthy of praise. ]

[That surprises him. He takes a moment. His shot in the dark was right?]

It shouldn't. You need that here to survive.

[ Alice is a very frank and honest person, she doesn't like to lie. The shot in the dark is correct and she knows her line of thinking limits her. So she nods. ]

No, you're right, Mr. Jason. But if anything, I should thank you as well. A little honesty does us good every so often.

Between like-minded people, anyway. No point doing much else, if you ask me.

[To be caught in a lie among comrades is just asking for trouble. He's done it before, but there was no true loyalty there. He knows how long he can carry these things through, and he sees no point in doing that among the Unseelie.

Jason can't exactly explain why he feels a sense of loyalty to the Unseelie. Perhaps it's because he sees that they've all been handed the same plate full of shit.]

Of course not. Unfortunately, there will always be others that don't feel the same way.

[ She does notice a little feeling of comradery, though, that's with all of the Unseelie right now and for good reason. Yet Alice is still pessimistic, because she likes to think realistically, she would say. ]

At any given time.

[ Arguably, her, because of her relentless pursuit of the Jabberwock. ]

And speaking of like-minded people, what will you do? There's been plenty of battles and conflicts before, months ago, but none of this level. It's a little unfair to see so many newcomers pulled in at the worst time.

I have something to get back to. I'm not gonna let the world end and keep me from it.

[The answer comes swift and easily. Jason will not let failure happen. He can't.]

As you shouldn't.

[ She can respect that, she even smiles a little at that. That's something she feels and respects. ]

That's what I'm saying. 'Course, now I'm enlisted to play hero to make that happen.

We all are, huh? [A really twisted kind of hero.]

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