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[digophelia]

[ Alice has been trying to draw in her sketchpad for a while now and it's clear from how wrinkled the piece of paper is, that she's tried to draw on it to no avail. It's been erased numerous times. Right beside her are her imp and her rabbit, as always. She's been quiet at the villa, she's locked herself up acting stranger than before. ]

How funny it is when the mind brings so many images and memories that it cannot even transfer onto a sheet of paper. I know what I see, but it cannot go through my fingertips and onto my paper, unlike so many times before.

[ By the tone of her voice, she means more than that. Guarded as ever, Alice will not say what it is, other than she reluctantly places her pencil down on the paper. Art blocks are terrible, and they're more terrible than before. ]

I am sorry... for my absence. Please don't think of me as silly, but I lost a good companion of my mine. My mare. My horse. I took her in after my first battle, when her owner had fallen. I loved her dearly, she was my friend, too, as much as anyone else I know here.

[ Alice says this while trying not to cry. ]

I loathe to think of another animal as a replacement, but seeing as it is a necessity, I have no other choice. She had fallen in battle when I separated from the others.

[ When she went on her rampage after the Jabberwock, though she's not going to say that. Alice just rubs her rabbit's ears instead while looking at her blank paper. ]

I can try and buy one, if needed, if anyone wants to humor me. I know this is a silly request after everything that has happened -- selfish, even. I think it might be best if I left, for a small while, so I can clear my head and be useful again. No good comes of being a shut-in.

[ After all, ever since she came back, she's been acting stranger and much more distant than before. There is more here that she wants to say; she struggles with saying it. ]

I, well- never mind that. Please be well, all of you.

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[digophelia]

[ Alice is a very frank and honest person, she doesn't like to lie. The shot in the dark is correct and she knows her line of thinking limits her. So she nods. ]

No, you're right, Mr. Jason. But if anything, I should thank you as well. A little honesty does us good every so often.

[uneulogized]

Between like-minded people, anyway. No point doing much else, if you ask me.

[To be caught in a lie among comrades is just asking for trouble. He's done it before, but there was no true loyalty there. He knows how long he can carry these things through, and he sees no point in doing that among the Unseelie.

Jason can't exactly explain why he feels a sense of loyalty to the Unseelie. Perhaps it's because he sees that they've all been handed the same plate full of shit.]

[digophelia]

Of course not. Unfortunately, there will always be others that don't feel the same way.

[ She does notice a little feeling of comradery, though, that's with all of the Unseelie right now and for good reason. Yet Alice is still pessimistic, because she likes to think realistically, she would say. ]

At any given time.

[ Arguably, her, because of her relentless pursuit of the Jabberwock. ]

And speaking of like-minded people, what will you do? There's been plenty of battles and conflicts before, months ago, but none of this level. It's a little unfair to see so many newcomers pulled in at the worst time.

[uneulogized]

I have something to get back to. I'm not gonna let the world end and keep me from it.

[The answer comes swift and easily. Jason will not let failure happen. He can't.]

[digophelia]

As you shouldn't.

[ She can respect that, she even smiles a little at that. That's something she feels and respects. ]

[uneulogized]

That's what I'm saying. 'Course, now I'm enlisted to play hero to make that happen.

We all are, huh? [A really twisted kind of hero.]