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Clara Oswald here.

So...

[There's a lengthy pause as if she really doesn't want to be doing this post but feels compelled to for some reason. Or perhaps she just has no idea how to start.]

So this is Draubwurld's chance to play advice columnist. About-

[There's another painful silence. Or space for a long suffering sigh.]

Relationships.

[Another pause and then suddenly she bursts into speech, going to quickly that it's a little frightening that someone's mouth can move that fast.]

I'm mean I can't be the only one, can I? Had someone back home and then ended up here. Or back here, technically, for me. And now you've got to figure out what's to be done about it. Can't stand around the station hoping your mobile will finally, someday, send them a text message back. The one that you meant to reply to before you showed up here.

If we're trapped here for years and age slowly, it's not quite going to work to just pop back in when the war is over. "Hey, sorry, got kidnapped by fairies 65 years ago, sorry about that, yeah I'd love to go to the cinema like you said in your text". And all the while, they've wondering why you went missing all those years ago.

[And there it is, the sigh.]

Do you just... remain loyal even if it means they might have forgotten you when you return? Or moved on? Or do you call it a wash and start thinking of this place as a new life.

Either way, feels like a bit of losing game, no matter what you do. Suppose that's part of war. But war doesn't usually last centuries. For humans like me, anyway.

[Then she realizes something she probably should have said way back from the start.]

Sorry. For the too much information. And the personal questions. And personal answers if-and-or-when they are given.

Thanks.

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[ Oh, Clara. You don't know what minefield you just set off with Reyna. She debates with herself about saying anything. She's not the type to get involved in other people's business when it involves relationships. She leaves that to Venus children or Aphrodite children because they're better at this. War can be caused through passions involving love but— that's beyond the point.

Her own love life is a joke. A joke she's come to terms with and a joke that she just chooses to deal with like she does with a number of things. Best you swear off boys because you don't need them to be whole. When her answer finally comes, it's said tightly, like she's reining in her tone. ]

Move on. [ She pauses, knowing that's too blunt even for her so she continues. ] There's always a possibility the person will remain loyal. But there's just as easily the possibility that they won't be. [ Her mind drifts to Jason and how he came back to Rome with Piper and Percy and Annabeth who managed to stay loyal to each other despite everything. She doesn't feel bitter, but it still feels a bit raw when she's not quite paying attention. ] You'd be the only one hurting if you see them with another person.

He'll remain loyal.

[Clara catches the clipped tone and does her best to keep hers measured. It is, after all, a sensitive topic and she can't really blame people for bringing in their own baggage. It sort of comes with asking for it.]

It's... [Me, I'm worried about? No, too much information.] It's that I'm not sure if he should. Or if I want him to. Not if I'm going to be here for the next fifty years.

[ Reyna has to bite back a comment about loyalty and how she can't guarantee that. It's not her business and maybe Clara's right, maybe he would stay loyal to her. Still, the rest of what she's saying gives her pause.

Not being sure if he should be loyal to her is another thing entirely when compared to him staying loyal to her. Fifty years is a long time, enough time for someone to have grandchildren, technically speaking. To put your life on pause for that long for something that— may never happen is something that seems silly and laughable at best. ]

It's his choice. If he loves you enough, he'll do even if you don't want him to. Not that you could tell him you'd prefer it if he didn't. [ Since you know, you did mention that originally, Clara. ] It just comes down to what you can do, not what you can't control.

Control is rather minimal here.

[She sounds extremely bitter about this. Not being in control or having any control at all just makes Clara agitated and slightly nauseous. Of course, she can decide if she'll stay with Danny or not. But it's not a fair choice. It's not deciding if he's right for her or if they have the same vision of the future. It's her being stuck here. And him over there.

And a sick part of her feels relieved that she at least doesn't have to lie to him about the Doctor any more.]

It's not a fair choice. Not really.

Beyond not being able to bring your boyfriend here, it's not.

[ She hears that bitterness though, and understands it well enough in the case of wishing it was here. It's not a fair choice, sure, but a lot of things in the world aren't. Sometimes you just have to make them and deal with the aftermath ( control the aftermath ) as best you can. ]

You wouldn't have asked for anyone's advice if it was. [ There's a hint of amusement there before she smothers it. ] You're here, and he isn't. That choice has already half been made for you.

Don't think I want him here, actually. It's simpler he's not.

[The words leave her lips before she her brain proccesses them. For a second she's quiet, stunned by that admission. It is easier for her here with just the Doctor and no Danny. There are less lies, less stress, less pressure. She can just be a whole person. She can be the girl who travels with the Doctor. That's it.]

[ There's this moment of complete silence on Reyna's end. She hadn't— honestly expected that answer to come out of Clara's mouth. She likes to think she's a good judge of character but in this case maybe she was wrong. ]

Then— If that's what you honestly want, then this might be the world's way of telling you it agrees with you. You don't want him here because it's simpler, so he never comes and you never have to deal with the situation. Most would call that a victory.

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HI I'M STILL HERE

ARE YOU SURE? ARE YOU REALLY SURE?

MY BRAIN AND RP HAVEN'T BEEN WORKING OUT LATELY

WELL YOU'VE BEEN DOING BETTER THAN ME AT LEAST IN THIS CASE.