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eachdraidh2015-02-17 12:04 pm
falconkick) wrote in eachdraidh2015-02-17 12:04 pm
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oo1 ⊕ video ⊕ both courts
Hey, uh. Network. My name's Sam, for those of you I haven't gotten the chance to meet yet.
[ a small smile and a lift of his chin that both say he might genuinely like that chance to meet everyone everywhere at some point. but he's here with something serious today, so he moves right along. ]
I wanted to tell y'all something I like to keep in mind from day to day, but especially on days like the last dozen or so. I'm retired military - Air National Guard pararescue, for any of you that are familiar - but I enlisted a long time ago. Don't ask for a number, a man's gotta keep some secrets.
[ feelin' your age, wilson? his cheeky smile is short lived. ]
When I went to basic, I wasn't exactly itching for a fight, so I wasn't with the other greenies that were disappointed when we started with folding our own bed sheets. My ma raised me right, and the first time I picked up a gun, it was with all due respect to the power they were putting in my hands. I didn't wanna let all that go to my head and forget the responsibility that comes with carrying arms.
[ he purses his lips for a quiet beat, inhales shortly before continuing. ]
Wish I could say the same for the first time I shot a man. My country went to war right after I was accepted into the PJs, and when it was down to me or him, I chose him. Just - [ he makes a small pew gunshot sound, glum; ] - and that was that. I wasn't scared and I didn't feel guilty about it - and that was what stuck with me. I asked my unit, my CO, anyone that would listen. No one could tell me whether or not I was supposed to feel good about killing the "bad guys".
[ another moment's silence - half to find his next words, half out of respect for the dead. he scrubs a hand over his head. ]
Still don't really have an answer, and like I said, it's been a long time. Some days I think I might be close, and other days I ask myself "man, who do you think you're kidding?" Thing of it is - whether or not you think it's for the right reasons, taking someone else's life isn't easy, and it shouldn't be. That kinda thing stains your hands, and then you gotta decide how to live with it. For me, at least, some days are easier than others. And on the days when it's not, I keep looking for an answer.
[ finally, he gives a small, weary smile. the point of this whole thing: trying to get people to talk about it so they don't bottle it in. sam knows where he stands, and it's at the door, trying to open it for others. ]
If you've got any ideas, please, I'd love to hear 'em. Maybe we can trade a few around, see if we can't come up with something new. Either way, today's a good day.
[ dead tired, quiet, but sam still says it with a smile before signing off. ]
[ a small smile and a lift of his chin that both say he might genuinely like that chance to meet everyone everywhere at some point. but he's here with something serious today, so he moves right along. ]
I wanted to tell y'all something I like to keep in mind from day to day, but especially on days like the last dozen or so. I'm retired military - Air National Guard pararescue, for any of you that are familiar - but I enlisted a long time ago. Don't ask for a number, a man's gotta keep some secrets.
[ feelin' your age, wilson? his cheeky smile is short lived. ]
When I went to basic, I wasn't exactly itching for a fight, so I wasn't with the other greenies that were disappointed when we started with folding our own bed sheets. My ma raised me right, and the first time I picked up a gun, it was with all due respect to the power they were putting in my hands. I didn't wanna let all that go to my head and forget the responsibility that comes with carrying arms.
[ he purses his lips for a quiet beat, inhales shortly before continuing. ]
Wish I could say the same for the first time I shot a man. My country went to war right after I was accepted into the PJs, and when it was down to me or him, I chose him. Just - [ he makes a small pew gunshot sound, glum; ] - and that was that. I wasn't scared and I didn't feel guilty about it - and that was what stuck with me. I asked my unit, my CO, anyone that would listen. No one could tell me whether or not I was supposed to feel good about killing the "bad guys".
[ another moment's silence - half to find his next words, half out of respect for the dead. he scrubs a hand over his head. ]
Still don't really have an answer, and like I said, it's been a long time. Some days I think I might be close, and other days I ask myself "man, who do you think you're kidding?" Thing of it is - whether or not you think it's for the right reasons, taking someone else's life isn't easy, and it shouldn't be. That kinda thing stains your hands, and then you gotta decide how to live with it. For me, at least, some days are easier than others. And on the days when it's not, I keep looking for an answer.
[ finally, he gives a small, weary smile. the point of this whole thing: trying to get people to talk about it so they don't bottle it in. sam knows where he stands, and it's at the door, trying to open it for others. ]
If you've got any ideas, please, I'd love to hear 'em. Maybe we can trade a few around, see if we can't come up with something new. Either way, today's a good day.
[ dead tired, quiet, but sam still says it with a smile before signing off. ]
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See, I have a hard time believing anything in the world is really that cut and dry. I can't speak for magic, 'cause we don't have it where I'm from, but love is a hard thing to kill.
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That's what I thought.
[Harry frowns and mulls something over. He's clearly thinking about something he'd never considered before and not coming up with the answers he likes. If Snape could cast a patronus because he still loved Lily, that makes sense, but surely the Malfoys, who loved each other, should be able to? Maybe they could and hid it.]
In any case, I'm Harry. It's good to meet you, Sam.
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It's nice to meet you too, Harry - and thanks for teaching me a little about your magic. If it was hard for me to imagine when I got here, it's settling a little easier now.
[ now that he's seen things go to hell in a handbasket at the drop of a dime, he means. ]
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[ the curious mind wants to know all! ]
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I don't mind. I've got the time.
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[ maybe it's maybelline! ]
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In my world, it's something you're born with, but it doesn't really show up until you're about ten or eleven. Once that happened, my school came and took me and taught me for seven years.
[Because he's worth it!]
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[ that shit sounds tight. ]
Does everyone in your world have magic?
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[ It's taken a while, but he's dropped the word 'muggle'. ]