eachdraidh | voice; unseelie locked

[Isn't it funny how she and Lightning had been talking about different options and the war not that long ago? Isn't it funny how Xion had expressed the opinion that the whole thing was wrong, that sacrificing Seelie worlds seemed counterproductive considering they were trying to save them all? And now here the are, faced with that war, and how it was coming, and soon.

She'd been told more than once before now to think carefully, and if she's going to do that, if she isn't going to make the decision now... She needs to figure out what to do with herself in the meantime.]

We really... don't have a choice about all this, do we?

[It's an abrupt sort of question, probably, and one she wonders if she should really be asking aloud at all. But it starts out her post with a tone of reluctance, one that never really fades away.]

Nevermind. Sorry.

[Deep breath. It's been a day or so since the call went out, with Xion already conveniently back at Caer Scima. And she's been observant in those 24 hours, for all that it's helped.]

Almost everybody I've seen already seems to know what to do. Back home, I did missions and things all the time, but I only really had one job. And it's the one job that I can't do now.

[Can't because she refuses to. Sure she may have occasionally done other things, like recon, but her primary mission was always collecting hearts and fighting heartless, especially while Roxas was asleep. And now that she knows, fighting people, destroying their worlds isn't something she really wants any part of. Especially now that she has friends on the other side, ones that've helped her like Riku and Terra and Dick and Merida and Korra. But it's something she knows the monarchs would say she definitely should do. The thought is sickening.]

I don't really know what I'm doing here. Not... right now at least.

[Both in general and for this war effort. She hesitates for a long time then adds one last question.]

What can we do? For now, at least.

[She isn't so sure she wants to know what people think about her opinions on the whole war.]

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[She's starting to feel more and more on the defensive. It feels like all he's being is discouraging, talking about all the reasons that it could go wrong, and ignoring everything else.]

You say all that like we shouldn't even try.

[She does feel a little bad as she says it. Hiro's done nothing but helped her since she got to the Drabwurld, talked her through a lot of confusing things... he's the one who knows about Riku and the others from her worlds.]

Sorry. [There's an awkward pause.] It doesn't have to be right away. But this is something I want to do. You asked me what feels right, when I feel like I'm doing what I want to do rather than what I'm asked.

[And that's it. That's the clearest thing she can think of.]

I'm not saying you shouldn't try. [There's a frustrated note in his tone. He's had a lot of people tell him not to try but at the same time he knows now that you can't just charge into things without some loose plan. That's almost been his demise a lot of times.]

...where are you right now? I don't want to do this. ["This" being talking over the lockets. It'll be easier to talk when they're not being monitored.]

[Well this is clearly going swimmingly. And truthfully Xion half-wants to shut her locket again and go hide in a corner of her room, maybe for the rest of the day this time. If Hiro's been this... difficult to talk to over the lockets, talking face to face is going to be even harder, isn't it? Not to mention she misses what he meant by "this," and assumes he means talking to her - but then why would he be asking where she is? He isn't making sense. This is a terrible idea.

He isn't Azula who she barely knows. This is Hiro. That has... to count for something, right? But at the same time...

Xion hesitates for a long moment, before sighing, frustration having turned to unease and resignation.]

I don't think now's a good time. I'm sorry.

[And she closes the locket again, and this time she doesn't come back to it.]

Edited 2015-09-03 23:14 (UTC)