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[needmetoo]

[Isn't it funny how she and Lightning had been talking about different options and the war not that long ago? Isn't it funny how Xion had expressed the opinion that the whole thing was wrong, that sacrificing Seelie worlds seemed counterproductive considering they were trying to save them all? And now here the are, faced with that war, and how it was coming, and soon.

She'd been told more than once before now to think carefully, and if she's going to do that, if she isn't going to make the decision now... She needs to figure out what to do with herself in the meantime.]

We really... don't have a choice about all this, do we?

[It's an abrupt sort of question, probably, and one she wonders if she should really be asking aloud at all. But it starts out her post with a tone of reluctance, one that never really fades away.]

Nevermind. Sorry.

[Deep breath. It's been a day or so since the call went out, with Xion already conveniently back at Caer Scima. And she's been observant in those 24 hours, for all that it's helped.]

Almost everybody I've seen already seems to know what to do. Back home, I did missions and things all the time, but I only really had one job. And it's the one job that I can't do now.

[Can't because she refuses to. Sure she may have occasionally done other things, like recon, but her primary mission was always collecting hearts and fighting heartless, especially while Roxas was asleep. And now that she knows, fighting people, destroying their worlds isn't something she really wants any part of. Especially now that she has friends on the other side, ones that've helped her like Riku and Terra and Dick and Merida and Korra. But it's something she knows the monarchs would say she definitely should do. The thought is sickening.]

I don't really know what I'm doing here. Not... right now at least.

[Both in general and for this war effort. She hesitates for a long time then adds one last question.]

What can we do? For now, at least.

[She isn't so sure she wants to know what people think about her opinions on the whole war.]

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[pixiedusting]

You always have a choice.

( there's not much of one here, admittedly, but Tink has learned that there is always a choice. pretending there isn't one tends to be more of an excuse to do the wrong thing, she finds. )

What is it you want to do? The monarchs request we work to prepare for the war, but that doesn't have to mean fighting if you don't want it to.

[needmetoo]

[Truthfully what Xion had meant was less no choice and more no real choice with consequences she would be able to live with (in some cases, quite literally). At least in the broader sense. In the more immediate...]

I guess that's what I meant. We have to prepare for the war, somehow. But I don't want to fight.

[That she's very certain about. She doesn't quite elaborate as much as she did with Katsa, not yet at least.]

I just don't know what else I can really do. I don't know how to do a lot of things. Most of my magic's gone, and... I guess I can sew, though I'm not very good yet.

[pixiedusting]

You shouldn't have to fight.

( Tink is just about as close as a pacifist as one can get. she is a fairy, she is not meant to fight a war. she is supposed to help people, protect people, she will not do them harm unless they intend to harm her or someone she cares about. even then, the fairy would avoid killing if she at all could. )

Sewing is a start. You could learn protective magic, I'm told that anyone can learn the magic of this world. Or how to help heal those who have been harmed by the fighting. You could try to help the people of this land, who I think suffer the most from all this.

It might take a few tries to learn what you really like, but as long as you have the desire to make a difference I think you could find something.

[needmetoo]

[That's... a lot of suggestions. But suggestions are what she had been looking for, and so she considers the different options presented.]

I still have my healing magic, but... it's only really good for small things.

[Bumps and bruises and scrapes and less serious claws and bites. At it's best (at least so far as she knows), it might be able to speed the healing of broken bones, though it'd be unwise to do so if the break isn't clean or hasn't been set.]

But I guess... that'd be a good place to start?

[pixiedusting]

Right. I think that is a wonderful place to start.

( Tink offers a quick smile in reassurance. healing magic is a complicated task yet a valuable skill. )

There might be ways to learn the healing magic of this world. I've seen classes run, that might help you.

[needmetoo]

[It actually takes an hour or two before Xion gets back to this message. A certain other conversation ended up going not nearly so well, and she'd needed time to calm down again. She's feeling... somewhat better now. Mostly. There's still a shaky edge to her voice that there probably hadn't been before.]

Classes? [That sounded promising.] Where were they?

[pixiedusting]

( between the shake to her voice and the gap between comments, Tink is a little worried. she wants to ask, but bites her tongue. )

There's a training grounds in the castle. Perhaps I could show you, if you like.

[needmetoo]

[After a moment or two to think about it, Xion smiles - a little wistfully - and nods.]

I think I'd like that. Thanks.

[pixiedusting]

Tell me when is a good time, and I'll stop by your rooms and we can walk together.

( Tink is a friendly fairy, and it's an easy way to help. )

[needmetoo]

[Xion takes a moment, to think about that.]

Not right away.

[She's still feeling a bit rattled.]

Later this afternoon, maybe?

[pixiedusting]

How about a few hours after lunch, would that serve?

[needmetoo]

Yeah. That'll be fine.

[She should be better by then, she thinks. Plus it means she won't be going on some kind of hunt or class on an empty stomach]

Thanks, Tinker Bell.

[She means it.]

[pixiedusting]

You're welcome.

( she's not sure what has changed in the momentary lapse of conversation, but Tink means it. she's very happy to help. )

I'll see you soon.