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[needmetoo]

Um... I know people are probably still busy helping banshees and I'm sorry if I'm interrupting that, but I wanted to ask something. What are some other ways you use to contact people when the ways you have aren't working?

[Whatever you might be thinking, it's probably wrong. Xion just happens to have one particular friend who her messages don't seem to be reaching. He'd talked to her just before she'd left on her trip with Riku and the others, and now she's trying to do a better job of checking in than she did during her quest to Leathann.]

And if anybody sees Yuri, let him know I'm doing okay and want to talk to him.

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[needmetoo]

[There's a heavy, leaden feeling.]

What... what happens there? Will he be okay?

[She thinks she knows though. If that place was anywhere good... Xion still is having trouble recognizing some emotions and cues for what they are, but she knows if Yuri was fine, Clarke wouldn't be acting this way. She'd be doing something different (reassuring her), but she wasn't.

First it was finding out that the destruction of this world caused the destruction of all of theirs as well. And now if they're not connected to here, they're not connected to home as well.

On top of the lead weight, it feels like a hot fist is jammed in her stomach, and a lump in her throat that won't go away.]

Why? Why is this one world so important? Why can't our worlds - why can't we exist on our own?

[Why couldn't he be safe? Why couldn't they all be safe? It wasn't fair.]

[unsolitary]

He won't feel anything, I don't think. I'm pretty sure the people who are lost there don't really realize they're lost, but they're... Stuck there, wandering in the place between worlds, until either we win the war or the Monarchs are able to re-establish their ties to this world.

( her voice is gentle as she explains, soft, and she does her best to be compassionate about this. she's lost people too many times in the Drabwurld, has woken up to find one of her friends from home absent. this pain is a familiar one, and the weight in her hand is familiar, too. it isn't the first shard of a friend she's found.

she swallows thickly, reining in her upset the best she can. )

This is the world that all others were started from, every origin of every world can be traced back here. I wish- I wish I knew why we can't exist on our own, I wish I had an answer for you. I'm sorry.

[needmetoo]

It's stupid!

[It comes out as a harsh snap. If their worlds could exist on their own, then they wouldn't be brought here. Yuri would be home. She'd be home. They'd both be safe, figuring out everything on their own worlds.

Or maybe they would be here, but there wouldn't be this pressing need to listen to the monarchs and get involved in their dumb war. There wouldn't be a need to try to figure out all these wrongs from rights. Things that Yuri had tried to help explain to her. Yuri, who'd been one of the first people to really stick up for her. Who told her that it didn't matter what she was or what had happened to her.

And even if they were still brought here, if he'd gone home now he'd be okay. He wouldn't be lost or wandering.]

It's not fair!

[Just because it came first. Like the people who'd say that Somebodies were more important than Nobodies, just because the Somebodies were what Nobodies came from.]

[unsolitary]

( Clarke's thankful that she kept this to voice, that Xion won't see her flinch back from the bite in her tone. in all honesty she feels awful for this, that it had to be her that told her. but the alternative was a lie, and Clarke refused to set the tone for their friendship to be based on a lie as big as this one would have been.

she forces her voice to be gentle when she speaks, heavy with emotion despite how calm she tries to keep her tone. )

You're right. It is stupid, and it is unfair. I've lost a lot of friends in my time here, Xion, and it doesn't get easier. I'll always remember them, and I'll always miss them, and it's okay for you to be angry about it. I wish people were sent home when they left, I wish that was exactly what the monarchs were able to do.