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[steelminded]

[ The voice at the other line sounds exhausted. Well, considering he did spend a month away from the locket for the duration of the month on a building project, it's no wonder he didn't even bother to show his face to the general public. Either ways, Shirou Emiya is going to address the mass with a question. ]

...What exactly do you guys fight for? I used to think that I know what kind of future I'm moving towards, but lately it's been really fuzzy.

[ It's true that this world would end up another illusion that will disappear the moment he ends up back within his own world, but there was no way of knowing that right now. Having to deal with a close friend coping with this war, and having to question his own ideals for the second time had not been a fun experience for him at all. ]

I guess I'm just unnerved by all these going-ons, but I'd appreciate it if you could spare your time to answer this question.

[ It was short, but what could he say? The growing tensions between the Seelie and Unseelie meant that he can't really say anything specific of his current going-ons. ]

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[gordianknots]

I think we should have this discussion in person, if you genuinely would like my perspective.

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[steelminded]

...Ah, that'd be a good idea, to be honest.

[ he had been away from everyone else for far too long. The only contact he had with people from home would be Saber who just finished inspecting his work. ]

I might be heading to the Station in the near future, I... have something to do there.

[ he meant getting Tohsaka a present, but he's not even sure on what he'll get for her just yet. ]

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[gandere]

[ Damn it, Shirou Emiya. Don't do this thing. Not now. ]

Fuzzy..?

Emiya, you're acting strangely. [ Of course he is. Their last conversation was practically a break-up. ]

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[steelminded]

... I don't feel anything different, Tohsaka.

[ No, actually he had been feeling numb, it's just that he completely ignored it as he worked on the project Saber handed him. By the end of it the it felt like his mind was disconnected from his body, but he's still him.

He's still him and yet he can feel that it's not him at the same time.

He'll get over it. ]

[cagedinflesh]

Mr. Emiya, was it? How nice to see you about.

To put it entirely plainly, in but a word, I fight for justice. More specifically, the protection and wellbeing of all people.

[steelminded]

...Justice, huh?

[ An Ally of Justice is something he chased after ever since he was plucked out from the ruins of Fuyuki, but even then, the only thing he could do was to hurt everyone around him as he kept on moving forward. ]

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[extramural]

Intense boredom.

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[steelminded]

...That's a direct answer.

[ ...Because that's just another phrase for peace tbh. ]

[digophelia]

I fight for my friends; I don't see how anyone can be "fuzzy".

[steelminded]

It's not always that clear cut. To some people, prioritizing their friends over the lives of many are a thing they could easily do. But to some, they'd choose the safety of many by killing that very friend.

[ he keeps being reminded of someone that was no longer here and it was confusing. ]

Those kind of choices can blur together within the heat of the moment. And I'm still not sure if those extremes are my probable choices.

[ finding a compromise meant you're wishy washy, and yet his innate nature to save meant he can't have both.

a dilemma, if there ever was any. ]

[aureinsof]

[Emil smiles softly, thinking about it a little himself. But the answer is simple.]

...To protect those who need it and to protect the people I love. It's a little selfish in the end, and impossible, too, to try to protect everyone, but... that's what I want to try. Especially lately. Even if I'm scared, I want to protect them. Sometimes the only way I can is if I fight.

[steelminded]

...That's a good attitude to have.

[ unfortunately, it's not one Shirou Emiya has. Shirou Emiya is too selfless to even think about this path.

but lately, he had begun considering it in order to protect the one person he cared the most. ]

At the very least you know where you intend to go in your life.

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[manipulative]

[ what does katherine pierce fight for? the answer is easy. never has it become so fuzzy as her poor friend's here. her vision has remained as sharp as it had on that fateful day in april of 1492. ]

Freedom.

[ me. but she fears herself to be too lost for such a heroic act. ]

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[steelminded]

From what? [ ...there was a beat as he realized he might've said the wrong thing in an automatic response. ] Sorry, I shouldn't have started with that kind of question.

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[individualist]

You too, huh?

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[steelminded]

...Uh, what exactly do you mean by that?

[ was there an outbreak of people questioning their ideals or something??? ]

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[hiddeninfidelity]

There is many things a knight like myself may fight for. Glory, obligation, duty. But as I am now, beyond my loyalties to some, I fight to prove myself.

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[steelminded]

...So basically, you fight for acceptance?

[ ...it might take him a while to realize that he might've said a dumb thing. ]

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[forsworn_rose]

You are not fighting for yourself, not here. You are fighting for your world.

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[steelminded]

I know.

[ And he knows that while death isn't permanent, the act of killing is something he would escape in this very world. ]

But what if you don't want to return to your own world?

[ It's a small and crazy possibility, but for Shirou Emiya, who sought to save everyone, felt restless now that he lived in Drabwurld for a while. Even if the war is over someday within this life time, he might still stay in order to save everyone that is native to this world.

After all, it was his ideal that dictated that saving everyone is an inevitability. ]

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[of_the_lake]

Why bother asking? All people have varying reasons to risk their lives. Are you looking for one, yourself?

It would only be a false desire if you copied someone else.

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[steelminded]

[ STATIC INTENSIFIES

The moment the kid uttered his second sentence before Shirou could even response, Shirou's brains halted at the words.

Ah, yeah, his ideal was certainly copied, perhaps even fake. Still he admits that it was— is brilliant to make him desire to fulfill even if head to give up his empty self to it. ]

Is it wrong to want to know their reason to fight?

[ Because he won't let go of that ideal, not now. ]

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[enjoymyatelier]

Well, when you've got a job to do, you've got to do it well. It's what's expected of me here, and unless I have reason not to, I'm going to continue. It's as simple as that.

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[steelminded]

I see.

[ ...there's a beat. ]

That's not a bad thing at all, really, to do the finest job that you can do.

[ and it's something he at least understands a bit of, what's with his missing ability here. ]

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[andallbite]

[ Eren, on the other hand, knows exactly what he fights for. His answer is simple, very to-the-point, but it holds all the conviction in the world: ]

To survive.

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[steelminded]

[ The second person to say that they fight to survive this world. Either ways, he recognized his face, even if it's a bit faded from his memory.

Shirou showed his face. It's only right to answer in kind after all. ]

So, what do you intend to do after this is over?

[ ...After all, there's a lot of meaning to surviving. Even if someone survived to the end, what would they do next if their reason to fight is to survive? ]

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[bythewaves]

What others fight for I cannot say, although I think many would speak of fame and fortune, perhaps of what is 'right', or to protect those they care for. I am long tired of war - we fought once for vengeance for my father and grandfather, for the return of our family's birthright - and we fought until we no longer were worthy of that birthright. I will not raise sword again save in defense of those I love.

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[steelminded]

[ This sounds a bit familiar to Shirou. Someone who raised his arms in vengeance and fought to his bitter end, sometimes literally, and sometimes to his own destruction of his old life once he realized it. Shirou could tell from how he looked and how he sounded that he really is just weary of it all. ]

...So you're here just because you wanted to protect your loved ones.