[She shakes her head, a fingertip flicking away the only tear that manages to escape. It is the last one.]

I was scared, and I always have to control everything especially when I'm scared. 'Cause if I don't control everything, nothing gets controlled, sometimes. Or--I've always had to think so. And I know I go too far sometimes, but I always think going too far is better than not going far enough and someone getting hurt...and this time going too far was what hurt, and it didn't even help me. I will stop if you say no, every time you say it again, no matter what, and I mean it. Even if I think it's important, if you say no, I'll know I've gone too far.