[He's quiet for a long time. He's come to terms with his death and the consequences as much as he can. He's not sure he'll ever forget the grief he caused his parents or the way his sister went to off-rail.

But he understands scared. ]

Yeah, I was. I was so relieved and so tired. I was scared my whole life, I think. I liked to dress different and act different but I was always so scared of everything. By the time I got to - well. By the time I did what I did, I didn't have it in me to be scared any more.

[He closes his eyes. ]

Why were you scared, Teresa?