[ which is the nicest possible way she could think of to try to deflect from how much the comment makes her mind sort of swim, sad and hopeful all at once, even though she knows he doesn't remember. it's selfish to be thinking of what he lost with his memory Swipe as "his time with me" instead of "his childhood", but she is, that's where her brain goes. maybe because her time with Tom was her childhood. it's all the same to her. now that she remembers, she can't imagine not knowing. she's almost glad she was asleep for so long after she first got the swipe, like she had time to adjust. even if that time was spent slowly forgetting, instead of all at once. it's hard to say which is worse.
there's also some part of her that wants to mention that they weren't on opposite sides back then, but she can't do it. ]
But only because we used to say it up here. [ said with a tap, tap against her temple. ]
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[ which is the nicest possible way she could think of to try to deflect from how much the comment makes her mind sort of swim, sad and hopeful all at once, even though she knows he doesn't remember. it's selfish to be thinking of what he lost with his memory Swipe as "his time with me" instead of "his childhood", but she is, that's where her brain goes. maybe because her time with Tom was her childhood. it's all the same to her. now that she remembers, she can't imagine not knowing. she's almost glad she was asleep for so long after she first got the swipe, like she had time to adjust. even if that time was spent slowly forgetting, instead of all at once. it's hard to say which is worse.
there's also some part of her that wants to mention that they weren't on opposite sides back then, but she can't do it. ]
But only because we used to say it up here. [ said with a tap, tap against her temple. ]