To lose control over myself in any degree is a price, for any time. [And there is that sneaky little factor: Jason doesn't know why he's alive. It's not something he's going to advertise to anyone, least of all this guy.]

And she prefers for us to handle our own deals, in my experience. And I do have experience, with other such deals and assistance. It's only fair. She isn't there to lead us by the leash, and I don't think we'd want that.