This country will never be my country, however much I might wish it was. I would not call it a prison but I would not call it a home.

[Maybe in time. Maybe with additional people, additional bonds, but she misses what is left of her family so fiercely she doubts in this moment she will ever find peace here. But there is nothing to go back home to, really.]

A knight carries out orders. There is questioning, of course, but to fully serve someone you must accept that they will do what is best for their people and their country.