I knew I wished more than to be a court lady when I was very young. I asked for sword lessons and my parents allowed it. I was better than my brother, actually, because he always had his head in books.

[There is a certain fondness at that memory. She always had been so happy with a sword in her hand.]

To be a knight of the king was my greatest privilege, but I agree that it is not such a bad thing to wander down other paths. Wandering led me to what my true calling was and so I am certain it will do the same for you.